Partie 4
Emotions are such things that do not wait for anyone
Zhong Shenyan's words made me suddenly lift my head to look at the classroom door: "Ke Yuchen?"
Barbecue, what a sunny activity it seems, and it sounds so youthful and vibrant, doesn't it? However, on such a late summer evening, standing by the barbecue grill, the hardship is truly undeniable. I don't even need to look in the mirror to know that my face has been completely roasted by the heat of the charcoal, and it must be looking extremely unattractive and red. Even though the sea breeze is indeed quite strong, it holds no significance against the scalding heat that is raging at such close proximity.
However, no matter how profound the sorrow is, it will eventually pass, right
I am just, just a little lonely
After saying goodbye to Ke Yuchen, I did not walk over to Zeng Ting's side, but instead stood about five meters away, quietly locking eyes with him.
I sent a text message to Ke Yuchen saying, "I have arrived, good night," and then I turned off my phone
I became instantly rigid
I have noticed that your actions have already caused a very negative impact on my reputation. I frowned and said, If people continue to misunderstand that we have an unclear relationship, I am sure I will one day be targeted by the little girls infatuated with you. Do you understand that campus violence is currently very prevalent and terrifying
It is troublesome to explain the reasons, and it also appears overly deliberate
Eh? Who is it
If the answer is affirmative, then even if the universe is boundless, requiring traversing countless star rivers and crossing the endless traces of light and stardust, even if it means walking a distance of 15 billion light-years, I am willing to continue searching
His expression changed repeatedly, and in the end, it surprisingly became a bit shy. I observed his demeanor and speculated in my heart, is he not planning to discuss his relationship progress with Liu Ziyu with me?
Tears, they still fell down
Just as I settled down, my phone began to vibrate in my bag
The tide gently makes sounds between heaven and earth, and the deep blue sky is truly beautiful
The person sitting in the row behind me has picked up the bottle that rolled in front of him and handed it to me with a smile
Oh, her eyes are so sincere, as if she truly regards me as a confidant to whom she can share her innermost thoughts. But can I avoid becoming such an awkward role?
Song Qingxi, you truly lack ambition
To my surprise, Cheng Ting called out to me
Cut it out, isn't your phone supposed to be on 24 hours a day to avoid missing any romantic opportunities? Don't act like this is some special treatment for me. But it's not the time to argue about that with him. I gathered my spirits and tried to respond in a lively voice: "Got it, got it, hurry up and find someone to bring you food to save you, don't actually starve to death. I'm hanging up. Bye."
Tears slide down my cheeks, falling into the sea, without a sound, nor do they shimmer. On the surface of the sea, there are my dreams and my love, floating without roots; they will ultimately be swept into the depths by the waves, silently, shattered beyond recognition
Ke Yuchen also taught me that the universe is not limited to just the one we inhabit. Scientific research has discovered that there are likely countless universes, each with different characteristics and various combinations. We merely exist in a universe whose arrangement happens to be suitable for our existence.
The reason Ke Yuchen will come to find me is entirely because I have not contacted him since returning from the seaside, nor have I disturbed him, which has caused him some concern
I truly want to escape, my inner self is in agony, I long to pound my chest and scream!
"Xiao Che said, 'Are you going to the bookstore with us tomorrow afternoon?' he asked me
I have indeed heard more than one person say that Zhong Shenyan's favorite person is you, so even though there are always rumors, as soon as you are unhappy, he immediately cuts ties with the other party
Stop making excuses! I pointed at the tip of his nose, saying, "You must have left me to face such an awkward situation alone because you wanted to go on a date with the lovely Light Beauty!"
"I am truly worried about you," said Dao Shenting, surprisingly in a very gentle tone that I had never heard before. "Come back with me."
If this is just a coincidence, then I can only say that the heavens are truly intent on making things difficult for me
Look, how simple it is, I and he can be separated into two worlds
Being able to express the words from the heart, allowing the love within to peek out and be swept by the wind, is sufficient. I will certainly be able to tidy up my emotions, bury my affections, and press them down more firmly, making it difficult for them to escape.
Even if it is self-defense, you have certainly gone overboard with your defense
Oh, so it was to divert me, naturally and logically partnering with Liu Ziyu. If I do not support you, wouldn't that be a failure to read the situation properly
I am the one who made the impulsive decision to like him without consulting his opinion, and seeing his current attitude towards me, I do not regret it either
My heart felt as if it had been struck violently, and I held my breath
I walked into the sea, feeling the tide gently wash over the tops of my feet, then submerge my knees. In the expanse of heaven and earth, the entire universe felt as if I were the only person present.
I had no idea that such a violent consequence would arise so close to me; I only felt a sudden heat in front of me, and then I was forcefully pulled back by someone, falling directly onto the beach
"How could I possibly remember?" I replied irritably, feeling very angry about the fact that he called me using Liu Ziyu's phone, and even more frustrated with myself for being upset over such a matter
That wound has to be opened hundreds of times a day. It is always easily torn apart by him, as if it is an existence that will never heal
I really don't want to talk to Liu Ziyu, please, I'm sorry, could you do me a favor and let me catch my breath
How could it be me
Song Qingxi, may we have a conversation?
He told me how wonderful it is to love someone, yet it also made me feel so humble
I chuckled mockingly at myself for still feeling lonely and sad over such trivial details. I leaned against the window, which was opened just a crack, put on my headphones, and closed my eyes
No matter how long the road is, there will always be an endpoint. The tent set up for camping is already in sight, and I quickened my pace
You are almost at the seaside, how can you come back? Just enjoy your journey of phoenix rebirth. As for me, I can only make do and find a way to call a lovely light beauty to buy me some food to avoid my premature demise
He actually has something to talk to me about? ... He came to find me, and then said he has something to say to me ... . ... Oh my goodness, can we not have so many bizarre phenomena that clearly shouldn't occur at the same time
Song Qingxi, you are not unfamiliar with the feeling of having little bugs constantly biting at your heart, leaving behind a multitude of small wounds, are you? Did you not say that you would get used to it?
This is an occurrence that does not require much consideration or excessive concern. I turned the frequency back to Ke Yuchen, who was smiling gently in front of me: "Indeed. But now that the exam is over, I can finally relax. Anyway, the results are up to fate."
Out of the more than thirty students in the class, not a single person had any experience with barbecuing, so the problem was easily resolved—by playing rock-paper-scissors
I am happy, what's wrong with that?" Facing Zhong Shenyin, I never hold back my arrogance
See, I knew it. Cos Zhong Shenyin's true love sent someone to help him get rid of his bad romantic entanglements, and there will definitely be repercussions
Clearly, we are in the same space, and it is a distance that can be reached with a mere stretch of the hand. Yet, due to an insurmountable barrier and silence, I feel a distinct sense of alienation and rupture. This sense of distance and separation causes my heart to gradually ache once more
Why has Zhong Shenyan recently discovered new cute girls, and they are not present to help me out!
I swear, if he dares to talk to me about this, I will not hesitate to kick him into the sea, absolutely
In this way, will there come a day when I can enter the world where he likes me more?
If possible, it would be better to simply take my heart out and throw it into the sea
May the amulet last forever, sacrificing the entirety of space, just to love you deeply.
Oh, your relationship is truly wonderful she continued to smile
Oh, understood, class monitor.
In the dim light, I could not discern his expression, and he too should not be able to see mine
The feeling of liking someone, is it really so easy to retract? His voice is so steady that I truly cannot discern whether he is laughing or sighing
Since the beginning of the school term, I have noticed that you always seem to have something on your mind, which makes me a bit worried
Now the two of them are leaning against each other, holding a paper plate, seemingly studying something. It's just barbecue, what is there to study! How hard can plating be? Why are they making a fuss and offering help
Two young men carried the barbecue grill rented from the convenience store by the beach to the shore and set it up. After much effort, Tang Shaohao and Yang Jing managed to light the fire. They then arranged the food they brought on the grill and assigned detailed tasks.
I have always wanted to sincerely apologize to you again
It will pass. Even if I once liked him very seriously, sincerely, and profoundly. I cannot compare to the person in his heart, so it will pass, and I must ensure that such feelings become a thing of the past
This road has many sharp turns, so please sit tight and be careful. He said gently, his words filled with just the right amount of concern for his classmate
Sharing the same tent with me is Zhao Yilin. I pulled back the tent curtain and crawled in; she was already asleep, sleeping soundly, likely dreaming of a sweet world.
So, is that version of me in the parallel universe happy? In pain? Would I also leave the person I love so much? Or am I embracing the person I love the most? Has that version of me cried? Laughed?
"You have been quite absent-minded today, even in the car. Are you feeling unwell?" The class leader, however, did not mind my identity as his 'suspected ex-girlfriend' at all, and continued his journey of care. "How about I take over? You can go rest for a while, take a walk, get some fresh air, or play with everyone. I noticed you haven't talked much with anyone today."
In conversations that do not take place face to face, I possess the courage to become exasperated
It is such a gentle existence, yet at the same time, it has opened an old wound in my heart
The senior is indeed impressive, able to seriously alleviate the heaviness in my heart, and I finally managed to smile gently.
"I am starving, who will comfort your wounded soul?" He paused, then shouted, "Has that senior of yours now surpassed me in your heart's ranking? You have no conscience!"
I stood up, brushing the sand off my body, and said to the person who pulled me up, "Thank you."
Every drop of water surrounding me at this moment has a journey that is longer than my own life. My current sadness, which makes me want to cry, is merely a fleeting moment in the vastness of the universe.
Thus, I resolutely boarded the bus
Good
As for Ke Yuchen, he is actually aware of it
I brought the phone close to my ear again: "What?"
I hung up the phone
Are you not worried about not meeting the requirements and being unable to go out
What are you doing?
Lying down, my ears were filled with the rhythmic sound of the sea, a sound that seemed to embody a sense of eternal existence
Beneath the sky torn open by immense wounds, human sorrow is so insignificant, yet so desolate
Will the heartbeat stop? Will there be a day when I finally become numb, no longer feeling heartache? None of these are important matters
Who says that those with good grades are dull? Ke Yuchen is not boring, and neither is Zeng Ting
"It's alright, I understand. Everyone has experienced situations like sand being blown into their eyes when the wind is too strong." On the other end of the phone, Ke Yuchen's tone was absolutely calm and natural
Camping on the beach for a night is very interesting
Do not say it, self-harm actually has a slight sense of pleasure
Would that version of Ting in the parallel world like me more?
Ke Yuchen once stated that the water vapor evaporated from the sea surface is carried by air currents to the land, where it condenses into rain or snow and falls to the ground. A portion of this water evaporates back into the atmosphere, while another portion becomes surface water or groundwater, ultimately returning to the ocean. This process is known as the water cycle. A drop of water departing from the sea and eventually returning to it may take 10 days, 5,000 years, or even 100,000 years for a complete cycle
It is settled
"Did your parents not prepare any food for you?" I couldn't be bothered to lower my voice anymore, "What about Xiao Che?"
Zhong Shenyan had advised me not to leave the crowd, and I have heard numerous versions of "beach horror encounters." However, strangely enough, I, who am not particularly bold, find myself alone on the beach at night and feel not the slightest bit afraid
I simply grabbed that claw and took a fierce bite out of it
Oh my, why do I have to be the one Liu Ziyu confides in during the break, and her confessions are about her relationship progress with Zeng Ting?
I think I should raise my head and look at the sky
I stand at the edge of the tide, the seawater quickly washes over the tops of my feet, then recedes, comes back again, and recedes once more. The sunlight has faded from its dazzling brilliance, transforming into a soft and gentle evening glow, beginning to slowly merge with the horizon.
However, it is also possible that she has hidden her sadness, preventing me from perceiving or knowing it
Although it is a beach, it is indeed painful, and I am also unsure whether my bangs have been singed by the flames
What else is there? Otherwise, why don't you teach me what I should do? Isn't my affection a source of trouble for you? I am quite understanding; Zhong Shenyin often praises me for being considerate. Don't worry, in any case, I no longer have feelings for you.
To decline again would only make me seem overly pretentious. I nodded slightly and accepted her kindness
Liu Ziyu propped her chin on her hand, watching me and Zhong Shenyin with great interest—why was Zeng Ting standing next to her
I slowly took out my phone and saw the caller on the screen. I frowned; it was indeed Zhong Shenyin.
I cannot help but ask, why am I being punished when it is I who have lost someone?
What a wonderful weekend! Does anyone know if she went on a date with Lu Wen? A gentleman helps others achieve their happiness. I am a gentleman among gentlemen; how could I disturb their sweet moments?
"Be obedient and come ashore immediately. The sea is too dangerous at night." There was no commanding tone in Ke Yuchen's voice, but I could clearly sense his insistence. Knowing full well that he could not see me, I obediently nodded and replied, "Alright, I will do it right away. I will hang up now."
Because of his action of rubbing my hair, I, slightly tilting my head, saw through the window the gazes of two people watching me and Ke Yuchen.
The direction of the text message is Ke Yuchen's mobile phone
He will definitely not mock my pretentiousness, my weakness, my childishness, I believe
It is not just me saying this; Zhong Shenyan's portrayal of being pitiful is truly hard to resist, reminiscent of that little child in elementary school who had their candy snatched away, staring with wide, innocent eyes, looking utterly forlorn.
Are you feeling unwell? Would you like to switch places with me, sit by the window, and open the window a little to get some fresh air?
Are you alone? he continued to ask
Time flows as if it has no meaning
Why, why, why!
"No, my phone is out of battery. This is Liu Ziyu's phone." He pressed further, "Where are you?"
I was indeed eavesdropping on purpose, as I was afraid she would bully you
It will never know me
Are you alone
My former catchphrase was, if I do not go out, I will not encounter a traffic accident
This is more like it. I am quite pleased with myself
I hurriedly stood up, intending to pick it up
Ah?
It is actually Zeng Ting
What a joke, between Zhong Shenyin and me, we only engage in mutual banter and undermine each other, so what is there to envy
A hurried voice came from the receiver: "Song Qingxi, where are you?"
"Words are just words, you must give me some time..." I said in a low voice, feeling guilty, "Changing the runway also requires time for me to find a new one"
Are you really that worried? Shouldn't the class monitor be very busy attending to the activities and safety of all the students? Zeng Ting didn't lose in rock-paper-scissors! And he wasn't assigned the task of barbecuing! Shouldn't he be heading to the sea with those who won in rock-paper-scissors, enjoying the water and swimming, experiencing the joy of the ocean, and incidentally gulping down a few mouthfuls of seawater, choking on it thoroughly?
Then I turned around and walked towards the camping area assigned to the boys, which was opposite to mine
I pressed the call button, yet I found myself unable to speak. The only sound that escaped was the uncontrollable sobbing that I could not suppress
Stay away from that world filled with someone else's little sweetness, remain here, and let me feel an unparalleled sense of security
I should face this tragic situation with courage and bleakness, with Zeng Ting and Liu Ziyu present, as well as my own circumstances
If I admit that I am in a bad mood, wouldn't that mean I am acknowledging that I still have feelings for him that he has completely denied? I have no way to answer him, so I can only use a rhetorical question to extricate myself: "Me? How could I be in a bad mood? Don't accuse me."
Song Qingxi, thank you. If it weren't for you, I really wouldn't know who to share these things with
By the seaside. Where else could it be
Someone who is gentler than Zeng Ting, more reassuring, more outstanding, and who values me more is right within my reach. Why can’t I simply enjoy the happiness of being liked and cherished by others? Why can’t I throw away this self-imposed confinement that feels like a dark abyss?
What is a standby? I am confused
Interrupt him, as I truly do not wish to continue the conversation with him
Did you change your phone number? I instinctively asked the question that was on my mind
Under a sky that has been torn open with a great wound, how insignificant and desolate is human sorrow
I can no longer articulate whether the existence of emotions is ultimately simple or complex
The sea level extends infinitely, and the separation between heaven and earth is no longer visible
His voice on the phone was utterly pitiful, making it impossible not to feel tense as a result
A person
Suddenly, I feel very envious of her lack of worries and sadness
I waved my hand, signaling him to keep his distance: "It's nothing, Liu Ziyu is a very nice person. If it were me, I would also like her. As for you, keep your distance from me."
"Go ahead, there are several books I want to buy recently." I replied.
"Well, I am by the seaside. Would you like to listen to the sound of the sea?" I regained my mood to speak, "I am currently standing in the sea, the water at night is a bit cool, but not cold."
So should I hint to him ... or simply confess? She looked at me, full of anticipation
However, Zhong Shenyan is correct; abandoning something due to a minor setback is not a good approach
What is it supposed to be? Oh heavens, do you think I am not miserable enough? Do you want me to reach the peak of sadness like those female protagonists in idol dramas, to be drenched in the rain and cry uncontrollably, before you are willing to let me go?
He... told you?
"You must remember." Ke Yuchen's consistently gentle voice spread out in the silent space, "bye bye"
Having moved far away from the barbecue grill, in the sunset, the shadows of Zeng Ting and Liu Ziyu appear truly fitting and beautiful. At this moment, from my angle, I can just see Zeng Ting's hand gently resting on Liu Ziyu's head, tousling her hair.
There is nothing to be particularly concerned about... His speech was slow, as if he were contemplating how to choose his words.
His topic did not shift to Liu Ziyu, but rather developed in an unexpected direction for me
No matter how profound love may be, it will eventually be dissolved and eroded by time. Who would continue to wait a lifetime after being treated with indifference so many times
Well, let's do it another day
"It's very dangerous for you to be alone by the sea at such a late hour, do you know that?" He seemed quite angry, "Come back quickly."
Why has Yao Xiaoche been spending so much time with Lu Wen lately, and not coming to keep me company?
The existence of tears is to prove that love is not an illusion, and sadness is not an illusion either, right
The wind on the Ferris wheel that day, his smile
"I assure you, I will never be with Zhong Shenyin, no matter who I am with." I declared.
However, barbecuing can sometimes truly be a nightmare
I just want to tell you that no matter when you turn around, you are never alone. " Ke Yuchen said softly, then smiled gently, "Alright, be good, hang up the phone, and hurry back to the camp.
Just one second before the hang-up button was pressed, Ke Yuchen's voice came through the receiver: "Qingxi"
Zhong Shenyuan's tone is somewhat overly cautious, resembling that of a parent: "Also, don't go to the beach alone at night. If you want to take a walk, find a classmate to accompany you; otherwise, it is too unsafe. If anything happens, feel free to call me; I am available 24 hours a day"
I would like to know, has your mood improved a bit?
"I was going to leave anyway, let's go." I walked past him, heading towards the direction of the campsite
It is just like this
What needs to be done now is to return to the normal, daily, and clearly defined paths without any intermingling
This is best. Please give me a call when you arrive at the camping site to let me know you have arrived safely, so that I won't worry.
Let the pain be pain; I can only hold on to the thought that I will heal once I become numb to the pain, and face it bravely
If my exceptional intelligence and outstanding judgment are not mistaken, then the handsome young man, who is smiling at you at the classroom door, must be the senior you mentioned
Leaning on the railing at the corridor entrance of the classroom, the more gently Ke Yuchen smiled, the more I felt a sense of regret
Be a little cautious, isn't it said that water and fire are merciless
Not everyone is born a hero, nor is everyone unafraid of pain; what is more terrifying than fear itself is the loss of your smile
The night by the sea is enveloped in a deep blue hue, with shadowy clouds swiftly sweeping across the sky, as if carrying a tumultuous air reminiscent of an apocalyptic scene, yet there exists an odd tranquility.
However... in the end, I merely smiled sweetly with perfect acting, continuing along with Liu Ziyu's words: "If he dislikes even you, then does he have anyone he likes?"
"I encourage you, Miss Song Qingxi. I estimate that after being struck down time and again, through one time, two times, three times, four times, and even a hundred times in this cyclical process, you will eventually awaken to a new understanding and be reborn. Keep going, I will always be your strong support. Whenever you feel like crying, feel free to come here to borrow my shoulder and chest!"
The location for the autumn outing has not changed; it is by the seaside at the edge of our city, where there is a very beautiful beach
Which side? The beach to the left when walking from the campsite or the one to the right? He remained aggressive.
Although it was not directly next to the ear, his voice was clearly diffused into the air on the excessively quiet beach at night
Breath stagnation, the pain in my heart and chest spreads and radiates outward
It is no longer possible to return
Liu Ziyu and Zeng Ting returned to their own seats, when Zhong Shenyan suddenly leaned closer to me and said this
I did not intentionally avoid going! What can I do if I am injured
I took motion sickness medication as soon as I got up in the morning. Later, when Zhong Shenyin called to remind me to remember to take the motion sickness medication, I thought about it and took another dose.
When I knew that Zhong Shenyan would not be able to come, I also considered not coming myself
A strange number is displayed on the screen, and I hesitantly answer the call
Since I have decided to transform this incident from a crush into unrequited love, then back into a crush, and finally into no longer being in love, I should naturally face everything
You do not know that kind of touch will linger for a long time, that kind of temperature will penetrate my heart, right? You do not know, or even if you "just don't know," that is why you can be so decisively cruel, right
That night, resembling an amusement park enchanted by magic, the sincerity, clarity, and calmness in his eyes were utterly pure. I still remember the gentle touch of his hand as he held mine.
I do not understand what you are saying. Moreover, no matter what happens, I will definitely come to your rescue, so do not worry. " Zhong Shenyin had a completely indifferent attitude.
The bus suddenly entered a sharp turn, and the mineral water bottle I was holding but not gripping tightly was thrown to the ground by inertia, making quite a noise
"Huh? Boyfriend?" I quickly denied it, saying, "No, it's that guy Zhong Shenyin. He twisted his ankle, so he's stuck at home feeling bored, and he's been very shamelessly bothering me.
In summary, I will remember that you have nothing to do with me, and I have nothing to do with you. You do not need to remember me, for I will forget you. You should fulfill your role as class monitor, and I will properly act as your classmate. Let us cooperate pleasantly
Embedded within the palm lines
Are you at the seaside now?" Ke Yuchen asked
He remained silent, took a step closer to me, looked at me with a complex expression, reached out his hand, and ruffled my hair: "Get some rest early"
My mother has recently not allowed me to go out, and if you don't come to pick me up, she will think that I am wandering around.
It causes a sharp pain to spread in my heart when I think of him, and when I am close to him, I can hear a tremendous sound emanating from his chest, feeling the direction of blood flowing within my body
If he were not the class monitor, and if he did not have the responsibility to ensure the safety of his classmates, he would probably never notice my absence
Hey! Since you just turned around and walked away after saying that, what gives you the right to touch my head and mess up my hair
I reached out my hand in the manner of Ke Yuchen, hooked my pinky with his, and then pressed our thumbs together as a form of sealing.
I never imagined that he would come out to look for me, nor did I ever think he could find me at the distant seaside. At this moment, even knowing that he is merely fulfilling his responsibilities and obligations, I still unavoidably feel my heart warmed.
He shouldn't dislike me, right? Liu Ziyu looked at me, her eyes filled with anticipation
I averted my gaze
Is it not possible
I nodded vigorously and also gave him a brilliant smile that was very fitting for a summer day by the sea: "Then thank you, class monitor."
I just witnessed the grandeur of the coastline, and when the sunlight created a brilliant shimmering reflection on the sea surface, I found the scenery to be exceptionally beautiful and magnificent, and I was slightly moved by the beauty of nature
I have learned to tightly hold my emotions in my hands, locking away "Zeng Ting".
I lowered my head, completely at a loss for how to explain or refute him
It is also possible to be without anyone, and one can still be very happy and content.
At the moment I turned around and intended to walk back to the beach, I noticed a person quietly standing not far away on the sand. That figure, so familiar, made my heart race again
In the school
I have realized that I have walked further and further away, with only the quiet sound of the tide around me. The figures of my classmates and the camping area where tents were set up have become invisible no matter how far I look. At this moment, the stars have replaced the setting sun.
Indeed, although Zeng Ting is a very nice person, he is truly quite slow-witted, and sometimes I find it hard to understand his thoughts. I only got to know Zeng Ting at the beginning of our first year of high school. Although we feel quite compatible, it is still not like you and Zhong Shenyan, who have been classmates since elementary school. The rapport you share is something even Zeng Ting has mentioned he envies at times. " Liu Ziyu said, adjusting her bangs. I only got to know Zeng Ting at the beginning of our first year of high school. Although we feel quite compatible, it is still not like you and Zhong Shenyan, who have been classmates since elementary school. The rapport you share is something even Zeng Ting has mentioned he envies at times. " Liu Ziyu said, adjusting her bangs.
Therefore, I can naturally show off without fear of being exposed by him
However, it has nothing to do with me either
From the horizon to the ends of the demon realm, I silently bandage my wounds at night. Can you understand the reason for my persistence?
"You... you can do whatever you want, say whatever you want." He looked at me with a sense of grievance, "You are the boss, fine."
Those who let me go to the seaside alone are not qualified to say such cool words
A total of five individuals ultimately lost honorably: two men and three women—Tang Shaohao, myself, Zhao Yilin, Yang Jing, and Liu Ziyu
Worry?
He did not say who it was, but he went on a date with the girl who confessed to him once
It will never know me
Then let us proceed as we agreed, I will pretend not to express, and you will pretend not to perceive, and we will have a pleasant cooperation
"Then let's have lunch together. Didn't you say last time that you haven't had pizza in a long time? Let's go to Pizza Hut." Zhong Shenyin thought for a moment and added, "Come pick me up."
Liu Ziyu noticed my somewhat unnatural expression with great attention to detail and gently suggested offering me assistance. With my keen sixth sense, I did not sense any insincerity from her
I paused in confusion, turned around, and looked at him: "What do you want to talk to me about...?"
I muttered to myself, gritting my teeth as I vigorously brushed the oil again
What does it have to do with Ke Yuchen? The one who is hurting my innocent soul now is you, right! You actually let me fight alone, I warn you, you are not allowed to play football for a month after your foot heals, otherwise I will kill you
The sand was stepped on, producing a faint sound, following me at a distance of two steps behind, neither too far nor too close, neither hurried nor slow
"Young Master Zhong, do you have any instructions?" Even when I feel slightly carsick, I still have to entertain him; this fellow really does not know how to keep track of time
Then take me along next time; I would like to learn your exclusive method of relaxation as well said Ke Yuchen
Well, her grades are good, she is slightly better looking than I am, her personality is gentler and more considerate than mine, and she understands Zeng Ting even better. Such a girl is a perfect match for Zeng Ting. Oh heavens, oh earth, oh Xiao Che, oh Zhong Shenyan, what can I do?
Hmm. Liu Ziyu nodded, thought for a moment, and said, "However, after that date, it seems he felt that the other person's feelings were very sincere. He felt that he did not have a corresponding level of affection to reciprocate, so he rejected the other person."
In addition, our school's practice is to conduct another class division when students advance to the third year of high school, based on the final grades of the second year. This means that, at the very least, I still have to complete this year of the second year with Zeng Ting.
I was suddenly caught by a hand that wrapped around my neck from behind, and it was indeed quite tight, choking me for a moment, making it nearly impossible to breathe
The air conditioning in the bus is operating, adjusting the temperature to a very comfortable level
Oh, please don't say that. She became quite bashful, "Do you really think so?"
Why can I not help but think of Zeng Ting
Looking in the direction of her gaze, she revealed a completely friendly smile: "Boyfriend's call?"
So you are worried that I am unhappy because of you? I am sorry, but you have misunderstood. I raised my voice to mask the tremor in it. "You don't like me, so am I supposed to like you? You don't like me, and I still have to hold on to my feelings for you until I die? Rest assured, I am not that devoted, and besides, this is not a matter of devotion.
Song Qingxi, you know, I am always here.
When one cannot see them, nor hear the conversations, and the air flows naturally, the world remains a beautiful place
Zeng Ting
It is Zeng Ting
He is envious of me and Zhong Shenyin
When changing seats, one could catch a glimpse of Zeng Ting's inquiring gaze from the corner of one's eye, as well as see Liu Ziyu gently smile at him, indicating "it's nothing." He immediately displayed a look of relief.
I was silently shouting at myself while saying to Ke Yuchen on the other end of the phone: "I am going back to the campsite, I will hang up now"
However, my mother once said that persistence is not a good habit; often, forgetfulness is clearly more useful than memory
In fact, there is no wind blowing that causes sand to fall into the eyes
I controlled my body, turned around, and walked back to the camping area
After school, I must kick Zhong Shenyin hard with both feet
I averted my gaze
Many people also say that you are actually the legitimate girlfriend of Zhong Shenyin, aren't you?
I smiled at him apologetically, took the water bottle, and deliberately ignored the sensation of our fingertips touching when I received it.
I apologize, but yesterday's exam was extremely important. If I did not meet the standards set by my mother, I would not be able to go out before the New Year, so I... I hurriedly explained.
Perhaps after graduation, I will never see Zeng Ting and my classmates again in my lifetime
He got hurt, so be it, but as a result, I was forced to face the situation of having to go camping by the seaside alone with Zeng Ting and Liu Ziyu
He and she have nothing to do with me. That is a world I cannot enter, and a feeling I cannot comprehend. I took out my MP4 from my bag, intending to put on my headphones, close my eyes, listen to music, and lean back in my seat, dozing off until I reach my destination
It is probably just a coincidence. I mockingly thought to myself, Song Qingxi, if he looks at you, it must be merely a chance glance that passed by.
I took out my phone
Even if it is a meaningless childish tantrum, I do not want her to see my powerless side
However, last semester I heard him say that there was a girl who liked him and confessed her feelings to him
I understand, I understand. I nodded with irritation
God, you know, right? You know how much I want to roar at her, "Those who can be easily arranged with have no right to complain!"
High school life comes only once, and I want to fully enjoy its passage
Today I discovered that this sentence has another layer of interpretation - if one does not love, one will not be hurt by love.
Yet when avoiding him, one can remain silent and utterly discreet
Of course, it is not entirely without discomfort, but I do not know who arranged the seats on the bus. Sitting behind me in one row are Zeng Ting and Tang Shaohao, the class monitor and the deputy class monitor, happily chatting about the NBA. Sitting next to me in this row of double seats is, unfortunately, Liu Ziyu
The double dosage is still effective; at least during the one hour of travel, I have not felt too uncomfortable. It is just that the air is stagnant due to the enclosed space, creating a somewhat stuffy feeling, which has caused a slight dizziness.
It is estimated that Zeng Ting was merely speaking offhand, but Liu Ziyu took it to heart
When Liu Ziyu furrows her brows, there is a sense of fragility and vulnerability that I believe Zeng Ting cannot withstand
So, thank you
I am hungry
He extended his right hand and raised his little finger: "Pinky promise."
In such a quiet environment, the sudden ringing of the mobile phone indeed startled me.
Hiding in such a world, pretending to be deaf and mute, is what I should do, the most correct thing to do
The argument with Zhong Shenyan was too intense, and I didn't even notice that this small corner of the classroom had actually been filled with padding. However, it doesn't matter since Zeng Ting didn't appear around my seat because of me.
Forget it, there is no way to change the grades anyway. If I fail to meet my mother's expectations, I will just go to my secret base and dawdle for a while, feeling down for a bit, and that will be fine. This is my exclusive remedy for relieving stress
I am almost being choked to death by you, this is legitimate self-defense
The setting sun has already been half devoured by the sea, and the sky is a unique twilight purple-blue, marked by the traces of an airplane flying by
Where is the secret base
Her shyness deeply hurt me, yet I must continue to be strong and portray the acting style: "Anyone with eyes can see, alright?"
"Hmm, understood," I replied as I took a seat
"Alright, alright, I agree to not date any cute girls for a month." Zhong Shenyan quickly agreed, but there was no sincerity in his promise; however, there was still a hint of warmth in his tone. "You’re not carsick, are you? If you feel unwell, don’t push yourself; it’s not worth suffering alone without anyone caring. If you’re uncomfortable, just ask a classmate to switch seats or open a window for some fresh air."
Moreover, time passes in the blink of an eye; who knows where anyone will be in the future
Why? Am I really that terrible
He at least is willing to go on dates with others. As for me, I have invited him to various places so many times, yet he has never regarded it as a date. How frustrating
Indeed, it is Ke Yuchen
However, there is a slight change in the personnel for the autumn outing
It is actually Zeng Ting
I cannot help but ask, why am I the one being punished when it is I who have lost someone?
From my perspective, I could clearly see the traces made by Zeng Ting's eyelashes in the light.
Forget about Zhong Shenyan... What is Zeng Ting looking at?
This is why, why, why
Nirvana, what are you talking about... "Zhong Shenyin, you have gone too far, how could you curse me?"
"It seems as if someone is forcing you to quickly resolve your own issues," Zhong Shenyan said, patting me on the shoulder. "However, speaking of the runway... the substitutes have arrived."
Xiao Che once said that contrails are like wounds in the sky
Why must I comfort her... The one who is hurt is clearly me, the one who has been judged out is clearly me
It seems that one must truly resolve to be resolute, to decisively cut away and discard the part where the wound resides, allowing the heart to be missing that small piece, so that one can no longer be entangled or revisit the past repeatedly
Approximately 10 ^ ( 10 ^ 28 ) meters or farther from Earth, there exists a galaxy identical to the Milky Way, within which there is an exact replica of oneself, along with an exact replica of each individual.
I was taken aback for a moment, and then sincerely said, "I do not know"
The most frustrating thing was that beside Liu Ziyu, who was responsible for plating, Zeng Ting appeared, lingering like a haunting presence
When I threw my phone back into my bag, I felt Liu Ziyu looking at me
Zhong Shenyan exclaimed in surprise as he ceased his attack on me: "Song Qingxi, you are being too forceful!"
Zhong Shenyan, that fool, was feeling bored a couple of days ago, so he went to play soccer with the first-year students, and in doing so, he twisted his foot
In that moment, I truly felt inadequate and unfairly thought of Ke Yuchen, wondering why you were not once Ting.
Song Qingxi, you are truly at the height of misfortune
I know. "Ke Yuchen habitually ruffled my hair, "When I met you, I was in my second year of high school, wasn't I?"
I am responsible for brushing the oil and honey, Zhao Yilin is in charge of flipping the food, and Liu Ziyu is responsible for plating.
"If you are a gentleman, then all the gentlemen in the world must be crying." With his ankles swollen like steamed buns, he still only cares about mocking others. This sense of humor from Zhong Shenyin can be considered a virtue, right? I was amused by him: "Do you want me to come back?"
A bit too much oil, not measured properly, slid off the chicken wings and dripped onto the charcoal, suddenly igniting a flame
Ke Yuchen also remained silent, quietly continuing this connection, allowing the stillness to grow freely.
I do know about this... However, I am indeed unhappy that Zeng Tinglian even mentioned this matter to her
I always feel that when she said this sentence, she glanced slightly at Zeng Ting, as if she were referring to him and her
Decisively and directly, I thrust the oil brush into his left hand and walked towards the beach left by the receding tide
Hurry back. It is also best to have a classmate come to pick you up
So I just glanced at him, then took out the exercise book, and no one paid attention to each other anymore. I no longer hold any expectations for miracles that may occur in the future
I saw a classmate, and I went back with him. I looked at Zeng Ting and said to Ke Yuchen on the phone
Oh. I casually responded, "It's fine, not too dizzy."
It may simply be that you are too familiar with each other, and he has not yet noticed these details. Just like with Zhong Shenyin, we are so close that if he secretly likes me, I would never be able to think of it or feel it.
I finally wiped away my tears, took a deep breath, and then gently said: "Ke Yuchen, I ... ... "
But I do not dare to look back
Get lost! I will not accept your fallacies; let you starve to death.
"Where are you feeling awkward again?" He retorted, "Didn’t you say the day after you returned that you gained a lot, finally figured things out, and decided not to pay attention to Zeng Ting anymore?"
Almost in the next moment, the phone rang.